Prison Guard

I have actually managed to convince myself that

 keeping my heart safe is a feat

I have the capability to do.

Get this Lord.

 I have been attempting to

protect myself from,

of ALL people,  YOU.

The very idea of surrendering  ALL

of my hope and expectations to You,

 causes my heart to fearfully balk.

So I keep my trust on a very short lease,

constantly tugging it back, on my spiritual walk.

Naively, I am holding my heart prisoner,

preventing the reality of God’s “me”

 to become.

Unwittingly, I am holding my healing

and deliverance hostage,

and blocking myself from freedom.

But, it’s time to stop holding back

 all of me from you.

And it’s time to stop holding back

all of you from me.

It’s time to stop pretending and fronting

like I’m as whole as I can be.

Time for me, my heart, to you, to release.

Time for me, my trust, to you, to unleash.

It’s time to let the prisoner go free.

Ephesians 4:31-32

EPHESIANS 4:31-32

Each day has numerous and countless scenarios,

 heavy with offenses and temptations of unrighteousness,

just ripe for the picking. 

But I choose not to eat or partake of that fruit. 

Instead, ALL thoughts of bitterness, wrath, anger,

clamor, slander and malice, I put away from me. 

By the power of the Holy Spirit, I render them mute.

My heart, filled with compassion, will remain tender. 

And kind to others I will be. 

As I obediently and humbly choose to always forgive,

just as God in Christ also has forgiven me.

©2010 Groshonda McDonald

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SHE

She wanted to believe so bad that

God really loved her just like His word

promised her He did.  She longed

to wrap herself tightly with the

assurance of a perfect love

available and waiting for her.

Who knew acceptance of this amazing

revelation could be so difficult?

In the back of her mind words of

warning, “If it sounds too good

to be true, it usually is!” were

firmly planted.  God’s message of

love didn’t seem to stand a chance

against the weeds of doubt

hoarding the gardens of her heart and soul.

She wanted to experience the

wonderfulness and power of His

love in her life.  She wanted reprieve

from the sadness and madness of

her life.  She wanted God’s hope.

She wanted God.

I AM

I AM

I am the result of anonymity.

the result of speculated identity,

 the result of growing irritability,

I am the result of assumed masculinity,

the result of concluded femininity.

the result of availability,

I am the result of lack and poverty.

the result of complex immaturity,

the result of reckless irresponsibility,

I am the burden around my mother’s neck

and the “deed” my father soon forgets.

 I am the unwanted child.

And I am one of many.

©2010 Groshonda McDonald

WRETCHED

There is a struggle taking place inside.

A war taking place inside.

Between flesh and Spirit.

Between grace and corruption.

One intent on eternal life.

The other, eternal destruction.



There is a struggle taking place inside.

A war taking place inside.

Between allegiances to righteousness.

Between allegiances to sin.

One leads me to a higher mount.

The other drags me back down again.



There is a struggle taking place inside.

A war taking place inside.

Between what the old nature craves.

Between what the new nature compels me to

One fights to keep me imprisoned.

The other fights for my breakthrough.



©2010 Groshonda McDonald

TIRED

So tired of going around and around this insane mountain of me.
So tired of wandering endlessly through this desert of me.
So tired of drifting without direction on this selfish sea of me.

So tired, Lord.

Why wont you come and rescue me?

I know you know where I am.
I know you see me.
I know you hear me.

Why can’t I see you?

Why can’t I feel your presence?
I need you, Lord.
I am so tired of me.


grm 2011

FALLING IN LOVE

I am falling deeper and deeper in love with God. He truly IS the lover of my soul. Our relationship is the only one in which I have EVER felt truly whole, in which I have EVER been assured of wholeness as a possibility, in which I have EVER envisioned or viewed wholeness as a reality. I am in love.


I am in love with His presence, His love, His availability, His comfort, His voice, His touch, His word, with Him, with Him!


He is filling ALL the empty places, ALL the emptiness I have carried around in my heart, in my mind, in my soul, in my very being.


He has become the pieces I was missing. I have found them ALL in Him.


I am in love. I am losing my fear of His control. I am embracing His Sovereignty. I am trusting His promise to NEVER, EVER leave me.


I am falling deeper and deeper in love with Him. He truly IS the lover of my soul. Our relationship is the only one in which I have EVER felt truly whole, in which I have EVER been assured of wholeness as a possibility, in which I have EVER envisioned or viewed wholeness as a reality. I am in love.

TODAY’S PRAYER

Lord, I need to hear from you today.

I stand at the crossroads,

asking for the ancient paths;

needing wisdom to choose the good way.

I need to hear, but not with the ear

that hears and then ignores;

not with the ear that hears and then is bored.

But, with the ear that hears and is wise.

The one able to recognize

the importance of the immediate response to obey.

© 2009 Groshonda McDonald

CREATED

Created to soar.

Built to soar,

above this world.

Made to soar.

Formed to soar,

above this world,

by His hand.

Created to shine.

Built to shine,

unto this world.

Made to shine.

Formed to shine,

unto this world,

by His hand.

He is my creator.

I was created by Him and for Him...

to soar and to shine,

for His glory.

copyright 2011 No Fear In Love

Groshonda McDonald

PSALM 63:1-11 (KJV) Longing for fellowship with God.

1.  O GOD, thou art my God; early will I seek thee:  my soul thirsteth for thee, my flesh longeth for thee in a dry and thirsty land, whre no water is;
2.  To see thy power and thy glory, so as I have seen thee in the sanctuary.
3.  Because thy lovingkindness is better than life, my lips shall praise thee.
4.  Thus will I bless thee while I live:  I will lift up my hands in thy name.
5.  My soul shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness; and my mouth shall praise thee with joyful lips.
6.  When I remember thee upon my bed, and meditate on thee in the night watches.
7.  Because thou hast been my help, therefore in the shadow of thy wings will I rejoice.
8.  My soul followeth hard after thee: thy right hand upholdeth me.
9.  But those that seek my soul, to destroy it, shall go into the lower parts of the earth.
10.  They shall fall by the sword:  they shall be a portion for foxes.
11.  But the king shall rejoice in God; every one that sweareth by him shall glory: but the mouth of them that speak lies shall be stopped. 

BELIEVE IT

I believe it!

God LOVES me!

GOD loves me!

God loves ME!

He REALLY loves me!

HE really loves me!

He really LOVES me!

He really loves ME.

I believe it!

...with an everlasting love

...with a healing love

...with a forgiving love

...with a transforming love

...with a divine love

He is my father.

I am His child.

I am born of His seed.

He created me.

He formed me.

He made me.

He knows me.

He, undoubtedly,

loves me.

MORE

wanting more...

pushing for more...

opening up for more...

believing for more...

receiving more...

Becoming more...

through Christ,

in Christ,

with Christ,

because of

Christ!

selah

THE PERFECT PLAN

Do you realize

God gave up His son

and Christ laid down His life

to become the ultimate

and perfect

sacrifice?



For us,

you and I,

to be forgiven,

saved from exclusion,

and to gain inclusion

to eternal life.



Not to mention

the provisions

of spiritual riches,

which enables us,

in holy righteousness,

to stand.



My prayer is,

we would be graced

with the insight

to fully understand,

the Excellency

of God's Sovereignty

to orchestrate

and execute,

Salvation,

the

Perfect Plan.



copywright 2009 Groshonda McDonald