STUCK

I've been unhappy

But this is a different kind of unhappy

And I've been lonely 

But this is a new kind of lonely

This here is something that i haven't experienced before

This is a sort of sadness 

With a deepness that is

Something beyond much more

I've been rejected 

But this is a colossal kind of rejection

And I've been hurt 

But this is a continual kind of hurt

Right now I have emotions stronger than I've felt before 

These feelings are something far greater than much more

I am at a place where my choices 

Have become freeze or flee

I  am stuck in a position 

That I never imagined I would be

I am stuck.

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love walks beside me in silence

it does not hold my hand

or offer any other comforting

or reassuring intimate gestures

it merely walks beside me

creating hope and anxiety

i do not dare reach out

lest i am rejected 

and hope would die

i can survive with anxiety

i can not live without hope