Prison Guard

I have actually managed to convince myself that

 keeping my heart safe is a feat

I have the capability to do.

Get this Lord.

 I have been attempting to

protect myself from,

of ALL people,  YOU.

The very idea of surrendering  ALL

of my hope and expectations to You,

 causes my heart to fearfully balk.

So I keep my trust on a very short lease,

constantly tugging it back, on my spiritual walk.

Naively, I am holding my heart prisoner,

preventing the reality of God’s “me”

 to become.

Unwittingly, I am holding my healing

and deliverance hostage,

and blocking myself from freedom.

But, it’s time to stop holding back

 all of me from you.

And it’s time to stop holding back

all of you from me.

It’s time to stop pretending and fronting

like I’m as whole as I can be.

Time for me, my heart, to you, to release.

Time for me, my trust, to you, to unleash.

It’s time to let the prisoner go free.